Body Changing During & After Pregnancy
As I sat down to write this post I wasn’t sure which direction I wanted to go in. In fact I’ve re-wrote the beginning paragraph multiple times in hopes of the right words. Not only do I not want to offend anyone, but I want to be as honest with y’all as possible.
Many of you mentioned how you’d like to hear how I coped with my body changing over the course of my pregnancy and post pregnancy. Now this where I feel like y’all should be aware that every single woman is different. For me, this whole experience has had many more highs than lows.
Highs during and after pregnancy:
It taught me that it’s okay to relax with clean eating
I let down a huge wall when it came to what I consumed. If I wanted a pop tart, I’d eat it. I knew that for the majority of the week I still ate relatively healthy. Even though I’ve always and still do believe in balance and moderation, there was no way that a few more extra sweets or processed food would cause any problems to us. I think this is why it does break my heart at times when I hear people say they ate pizza or a greasy burger for their cheat meal that week. Why do we as women (and men), need to place FOOD into a certain category? I just wish every individual realized how beautiful they truly are – plus size or not.
I maybe felt “fat” a handful of times
Some women feel like a blob as their pregnancy progresses. Thankfully for myself, it taught me to love my body more. Joshua and I had struggled to bring children into this world for years. So when I found out I was pregnant I made a promise to myself that I’d do whatever I could to embrace each change… and that’s exactly what I did. I was and am still in disbelief how ones body can make and carry a baby (in my case two :)). If my body had needed to gain another 10 pounds, I would’ve been completely fine. My body was no longer just mine. It became mine, Jailyn & Jenna’s. The change was one of the first realizations that life is no longer just about my husband and I.
Some people hate them and some people love them. Again, these haven’t phased me one bit. I mentioned before that I look at them as “love marks”. Whether they fade or not, they are just a happy remembrance to myself that I was able to carry two healthy & beautiful baby girls.
How easy it was to bounce back
I’ve heard horror stories regarding c-sections. How it takes some women quite sometime to have the strength and energy to get back to their normal lives. I’ll be honest the first four days were hell (pardon my language). I was scared that I wouldn’t be ready to handle our two girls once my mom went back to the States. How in the world i’d be able to lift our girls up and down. How I would get everyday tasks done. Thankfully as those days faded, things got easier. I no longer had to doubt my body like I did those days prior. Not only did the trust come back, but so did my strength and energy. Perhaps my OCD about a clean home & doing things a certain way played a major role.
Lows during and after pregnancy:
During those couple weeks of low energy I felt horrible. Not because I was tired, but because I felt like I wasn’t performing my every day wife duties. Knowing Joshua was busting his butt every day @ work while I sat at home doing nothing was hard. Sure I was still doing more than what others would consider nothing, but it wasn’t easy. At one point I become resentful of myself in what I could no longer accomplish in one day. I did second guess myself in needing a maid two times during the week once our girls came into this world. Thankfully in the end I haven’t needed one.
Oh they hurt! I do wish I could go back to my small boobies. I heard your boobs grow even bigger once you give birth, but no one ever told me how bad they’d hurt at first. I was in the worst pain while in the hospital. I do have to give a big thanks to my wonderful husband and caring mother for going to the mall late one night to get me even more new bras. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I’d jump to a double D. Thankfully as the weeks have passed they don’t hurt near as bad.
So as you can see, the positives definitely outweigh the negatives for me. I do have conflicting feelings towards exercise, but I’ll get into that another day. I hope this answers some questions you may of had. Please don’t hesitate to ask anything else the comments below. I’m an open book for y’all